– Ayn Rand
I looked at the people walking along the Thames, they were all hypnotized by destiny. I looked at the leaves, the skyscrapers, the British flag flying proudly… everything was my destiny.
I stood under an office covered by glass – a board meeting room with panoramic view of the Thames. I could see my great lover owning those meetings, those battles – people will always remember him, respect him, even when he is absent.
He bravely rules his world and I lovingly torture him.
As we stand on top of every city, we both know that we only rely on each other. We both know that what really matters is how much we can take from God.
This kingdom is restless, which makes it a nightmare to love… at first sight!
I arrived at Heathrow on September13, 2015. I told Julian (a cat that Kory gave me):
– You know what, I only plan to live in castles and work on rockets!
Even though I had a book named “1000 things to do in London”, I didn’t really go out during the first month. What was I waiting for?
In my mind I worked on a master plan of how this kingdom will treat me. In my diary I wrote:
– Julian, I only plan to live in castles and I will take you with me. We can act beggars and street artists by day, at night we will sleep on Queen’s bed.
I always consider my way of thinking romantic.
Matt is a famous journalist and broadcaster, an economist and loudspeaker. In my previous role, dealing with hotels, I was able to host him during his trip to Asia, in exchange for some publications.
By the time I arrived to London, Matt had already invited me to spend time with his family in Devon and discuss our possible co-production. I accepted.
Later on I discovered that Devon is also home to one of the most powerful men in my life. Nevertheless the real power was over the hills and faraway – Devon, my scepter’d isle, was indeed one finest countryside.
I found a castle. When I told Julian, he looked at the frame hanging on my wall – “To the mind that is still, the whole world surrenders.”
He turned the music on and they lied there for 4 or 5 hours. Their Sunday morning was indeed long due to a simple truth – they were out the night before.
Brave was holding a girl when Audrey arrived at the nightclub.
“You look beautiful. Interesting dress.”
“What is this woman doing in between us?”
“I don’t know.”
With their heads bending behind the back of the girl with big boobs, they kissed. That was the first time the once lovers saw each other since they went their separate ways several years ago.
“Hey dude, what are you doing outside the ladies room?” – Another dude shouted at Brave.
“Waiting for my girl.” – he whispered.
“Let’s go Mr. Brave. I have something for you.”
“It’s just another white night of us. We’re used to this, aren’t we?”
“Whatever makes you happy, Audrey.”
Stepped on a taxi, they held each other’s hands and pointed to the yellow light outside…
“Our 14th encounters with the yellow light”, said Brave.
It was almost dawn when they reached his place.
“So here we are, in the same house again. I have written a lot when we were apart. I’ll leave the notes here. Read them if you want to, Brave.”
“Can you read them out loud to me, right now?”
“I can’t. I will cry.”
“… Every time you went away, you took a piece of me with you. But I couldn’t and wouldn’t be able to love you the way you want me to – Accept that you are always right… You were always so strong and I was always so weak. I was always wrong. In my dreams I screamed out the hell out of you dominance. I was always alone while everyone praised our perfect love…”
“Look at you tearful kid. Do you see the lines around my eyes? I’ve began to realize that I’m not that impeccable. And after everything you’re still here, not everyone understands how lonely I am on top of the world. It was always my sin not knowing how to love a woman.”
“So here it is – A less bitter goodbye for us.”
“I don’t know, I don’t know Audrey. If we belong together, fate will bring you back. For now, hold me tight and sleep. No more tears babe. We have lived and we have loved. Don’t cry for me.”
I’m back with Part 15 of How to get Everything you want.
I haven’t written for a month. The last 30 days have been eventful, I’ve witnessed with my naked eyes an ocean of changes: My 25th birthday when all the streets were blocked due to a march, I ended up sleeping somewhere nice but really weird for a birthday – a rooftop office; I talked to my grandfather one day and he passed away the day after; I got (all) my wisdom teeth removed; I resigned and spent literally 30 hours on different planes and airports to reach London, etc. (yes, etc.)
The center of my gravity has been put on a roller-coaster. I’m truly grateful for my beloved, old friends, new friends and strangers that have made the last month bearable and lovable despite all frictions. Now that I’m pretty much settled in London, I’m obligated to get back to work.
Let’s revise our journey until now:
How to get Everything you want (THEN WHAT?)
During the last month, at times I didn’t really know what to do but holding on to dear life and people around me. There’s no way I could expect to handle (in a month) things such as the sudden death of my grandfather, the march, the historic delay of British Airways… The truth is, sometimes I’m still amazed that I’m living in London – This is a chapter of my life that from the beginning I’ve let go of control, tried to do my best in every situation and gone with the flow of life. I’ve never expected to come this far and (so far) this has been the most amazing journey, which has become the inspiration for today’s chapter.
Here’s Part 15: Go with the flow
Face it, why do we want to get Everything we want? Because we expect to be Happy in the end. What if THE END won’t make you happy despite the lonely and taxing journey you would have then completed? What makes you unhappy now and then? One thing – friction – Anytime the world doesn’t function the way you want it to, you are unhappy.
Let me tell you a little story: You buy some bread, you can’t finish it, you then go out on the street and feed the pigeons. You feel yourself as a part of nature, the day after and the day after you keep doing the same thing. Then you’ll never feel lonely again, and if you do, please go out and feed the animals with your leftovers.
The illusion of separation with the universe makes us unhappy and stressful – Let us remember where we want to go and embrace uncertainties that come along the way.
I do have the habit of closing articles with a picture of only myself doing something fancy, however this time I would like to introduce Dr. Karl-Henrik Robèrt whom I had never expected to meet but has somehow magically appeared and resonated with every values I’ve ever valued. Mr. Robèrt almost brought tears to my eyes when he concluded his 3 day workshop, in which I believed I was luckier than winning lottery to be present:
A way to reach the (not bad) outcomes is to comply with only decent ways of living regardless of outcomes.
Karl-Henrik Robèrt, M.D., Ph.D. (born 1947), is a Swedish cancer scientist and an important figure in the worldwide sustainability movement. He is known for the Framework for Strategic Sustainable Development – also known as The Natural Step Framework, after the not for profit promoting and applying it – a framework that lays out the system conditions for sustainability, that arose from his consultations with municipalities, businesses, government departments, environmental organizations, and the arts community. Having secured the imprimatur of the King of Sweden, The Natural Step was launched with attendant television coverage and distribution of educational material to every school and household in Sweden. The FSSD/The Natural Step framework sets out the system conditions for sustainability, as well as guidelines to systematically approach compliance with the principles. The framework has been applied to fields as diverse as agriculture, forestry, energy systems, information and selection of tools for sustainable development, green building and the ecological management of river basins. The Natural Step aims to be both scientifically based and readily understandable in its articulation of principles for sustainability.
In cancer research, Robèrt won the 1984 Swedish Hematological Association Research Award. In environmental sustainability, he won the Green Cross Award for International Leadership in 1999. He was awarded The Social Responsibility Laureate Medal by the Global Center for Leadership & Business Ethics. In 2000, he was awarded the Blue Planet Prize, often referred to as the “Nobel Prize” of ecological sustainability, “for scientifically laying out the systems perspective needed to plan strategically for sustainability and for changing the environmental awareness of business, municipalities and others.” In 2005 Robèrt received the Social Responsibility Laureate Medal by the Global Center for Leadership & Business Ethics. He was included in the publication 100 Visionaries of the 20th Century in 2006. In 2009, he was recognized as an Ashoka Fellow. and in 2011 as Ashoka Globalizer .
Part 15 is pretty much a spiritual one, nevertheless I believe it’s even more powerful than most actions, because it keeps you happy no matter what. I will come back with Part 16 soon.